Light vs. Dark

What do I do? I’m surrounded by suffering. This isn’t the suffering that one would find in third world countries. This isn’t suffering caused by lack of food or clean water. This is a spiritual suffering. Suffering that is worse than lack of physical food. These are girls who are living in sexual sin. Girls who believe the lie that it is “ok”. They were born like this. “God still loves me”. One girl is living in fear that she is going to get a call one day saying her mother is dead from a drug overdose. This is the same girl who is medicated for depression and extreme bouts of anger. Then there is the girl who suffers from panic attacks and has to be totally alone in order to calm down. Not to mention the others who are so starved for love and attention that they take it wherever they can get it, including being beaten on a regular basis. They claim they are fine. They don’t need help. I can literally feel there broken hearts. Sixteen girls. They need JESUS. Will I be the only light that they see? Am I the only one who shows them Jesus? I can literally see the struggle of good and evil. Light and dark. The struggle for eternity. The good news is that LIGHT overtakes darkness! I can see the treasures that God has placed in them. The Godly destiny’s that each one can step into. The God of the Angel Armies is preparing His bride. Awakening is coming! My job…be faithful, obedient, and love the mess out of each one. Love like I have never loved before. And let God take care of the rest.

Hello friendly blog readers...I cannot sleep. This is a very uncommon thing. It seems as though my brain hasn't gotten the message from my body that I am sleepy. So, since I can't sleep I am blogging about why I can't sleep and what I am going to do about it.
Reason's for not sleeping=
Thinking of Owie...
Wondering how J is really doing...
Is my grandmother coming to live with us...
Hey, going to Japan to play the violin would be awesome...thanks, Christy :)
I'm hungry...
How do I live Mark 13:25-27...Go read it for yourself...
Thinking of my cousin who has surgery tomorrow...
Wondering what God has for me after grad school...
Having WAY too many songs run through my head...
I would like to go kayaking...
Thinking of The Inn of the Sixth Happiness- good movie...
I want to go to Africa.

What I am going to do about it=
I am going to pray for all the afore mentioned people...Seriously...
I am NOT going to worry about life after grad school...
I am going to lean on Jesus...
I will go to Africa and hopefully Japan...someday.

So, friendly blog readers, I desire to follow the perfect will of my heavenly Father and to walk in the goodness of His presence and be found in HIS righteousness.

I can sum up the last six months of my life (give or take) in one word…change. If you know me, you know that I don’t like change. I will now take the time to blame my parents for me not liking change. You know why it’s their fault? Because things haven’t really changed a whole lot in Valley in the last 24yrs. My parents don’t like change. An example of this is that my parents have lived in the same house for 30 something years. But, whether or not we like change doesn’t really matter. It happens. Good old Webster’s defines change in at least 30 sum odd ways. Change- to become different…duh. Change- any of the various sequences in which a peal of bells may be rung…really? Anyway, through all the many definitions, the one that fits me (along with my circle of friends) is to pass from one phase to another. The old Byrds song just popped in my head…”To everything turn turn turn , there is a season turn turn turn. I know, it’s also in the Bible~ Ecclesiastes 3…guess that should have popped in my head first. Anyway, I’m surrounded by it! People have moved, gotten engaged, gotten married, had kids, changed jobs, and left the country (or are trying). People change, relationships change. The only thing that ever remains constant is God! He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. We all go through seasons of change. God knows who and what we need when we need it. There is more in my head and heart about this, but I’m having difficulty typing it out. Just so you know, I’m learning to accept change graciously because it is going to happen.

Welcome to my Blog!!

I’ve been thinking about blogging for a while now, but I’m not going to make any promises about how often I will actually write something. Not many interesting things usually happen on a daily basis. Anyway, I’m going to copy Joyful and make a list of some things that I like and can be used to describe me! Note: this list is random and not arranged based on importance ;)

Jesus has saved my life and I’m learning to let Him romance me.

Smiling is my favorite

“My life is a song”- thus the name of the blog…it was the first thing that came to me.

I have a niece and nephew who have me wrapped around their little fingers.

I have the BEST friends and family in the world!

Some of my nicknames are Antenna, AB, Towel Butt, Tall Butt, AT and of course Anna Banana.

My hiccups entertain people.

I do a good bird impression.

Violin is my instrument of choice. I attempt to play the piano and mandolin.

I’m an athletic trainer.

MUSIC! Love it, especially praise and worship.

I’ve wanted to pick up the hobby of kayaking…still working on that one.

I’ve been working on a scrapbook for a year and a half and am still not quite done.

Purple is my favorite color.

I miss Florence, AL

Mt. Dew is my favorite carbonated beverage.

I prefer fruits and veggies above all other food.

I absolutely LOVE HUGS!

That is all I can think of for now. I’m not really known for being long winded. Hopefully, you will be pleased to know that I have already started writing blog #2.

May the extravagant love of God be with you all!

Anna. T